the mean reds.

"The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of."

i have the mean reds today.
i feel so scared and lost.
the feeling has been creeping in the entire day.
hmmm...i may have a faint idea of what i'm afraid of.


but i just know that when i give, i'm giving parts of myself too.
and the more i feel, the more i lose.
and that's lethal, especially for people like me.
i don't want to be by myself right now.