Wednesday, March 12, 2008

the mean reds.

"The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of."

i have the mean reds today.
i feel so scared and lost.
the feeling has been creeping in the entire day.
hmmm...i may have a faint idea of what i'm afraid of.

but i just know that when i give, i'm giving parts of myself too.
and the more i feel, the more i lose.
and that's lethal, especially for people like me.
i don't want to be by myself right now.

1 comment:

jools said...

oh no... what's wrong mel?
oh by the way shelle is wanting to know when you want to come and visit her. :)