Thursday, October 8, 2009

sometimes bad days can be fruitful

it's just one of those days when you just want to climb into a hole and never come out again. or those days when you want to eat and eat and eat until you feel better. or buy something so extragavant. or run for a long long long time until you've forgotten about everything momentarily.

i feel so small. and 17 again, back when i started my first job in the real world and went home and i cried (yes i'm a crybaby) and swore i'd never go back again but did. and now, it's been almost a year but there's no sign of progress and just a whole lot of effing up. and you're supposed to find some kind of life lesson from all this.

yes i know i will.

later on i'll look back and see that it wasn't such a big deal and that everything turned out fine anway. yes, these things give you backbone, they help you grow up, but dammit it's hard. no mother to hold your hand or anyone else to make you feel better. it's all really up to you and how you're going to deal with it.

so i had a good cry during lunch, ate fries and bought a Nikon D60. no it wasn't an impulse buy. but it did make me feel a little better.


Karla Alejandra said...

It's just one of those weeks...
Hope it all turns around soon =)

Q's Daydream said...

I want one sooo bad! Hugs! :o)

coco said...

wow! totally know what you're feeling! keep your head up and take LOTS of pics with your fabulous new purchase ;)


Antoinette said...

Beautiful camera. I can't wait to see what amazing photos you take. Maybe when you see them you'll feel at least a little bit better. You should come down here for the day -- I'm not your mom but I'm someone's mom and I spent my day in the ER b/c of a playground accident. So there's lots of mac & cheese and honey grahams dipped in Nutella and other comfort food round these parts. Come join us! ;)

Celine said...

WOW! amazing purchase! I hope that cheered up your day! I can't wait to see your photos!

To answer your question, I use a Canon 40D as my digital camera.

I hope you feel better!!!

jona rhica said...

i got a d60 back in july. you'll love it :)

melissa said...

karla - thank you! i hope so too, and it's really too bad i cannot read spanish as i would love to read your blog. i'll just have to stick to pictures. :)

quincy - hugs to you too! :)

coco - i'll try to keep the head up tomorrow. :) thank you!

antoinette - you are the sweetest thing and would really love to hang out with you. mac & cheese and ketchup, yes please! (nutella is a given! hehe)

celine - merci! :) it has helped a lot. it gave me something to look forward to!

jona - do you have a flickr??? i'd love to see the pics you take with them!

Mon Petit Lapin said...

Oh no but enjoy the weekend now and wow I'm dead jealous with the camera!xx